Due to working a 40+ hour a week job (which I’m VERY thankful for) and Pastoring a church full-time, as well as a few other ventures that I’m involved in, I don’t get to post as often as I would like. However, as I was going through some old emails, I came across this gem that my “lil killa” as I call her, wrote back in 2017. A couple of weeks ago, there was an urgent need in our church to teach and mentor our students…well, needless to say, Olivia stepped up and diligently prepares every week to present the word of God to a handful of students…as a student. Of course, I would be remiss if I didn’t mention that she also runs a YouTube channel (click here) and posts EVERY Sunday, and would love for you to subscribe to her channel and like her posts!
I lived in the same place in Illinois, for my whole life. Everything and everyone I knew was there. Every Sunday, and Wednesday, I could count on seeing my best friends, and have a blast with them. I was top of my class, playing volleyball, and totally involved in church. But then everything changed.
My dad and our family were called to pastor a small church in Campbellsburg, Kentucky, six hours away from my entire life. Before I knew it, I was in Kentucky with no friends, no school, and no direction. I hated my life, all I wanted to do was get out of Kentucky. I was completely ready to go live with my friends six hours away from my family, just so I wouldn’t have to suffer. It seemed like it couldn’t get any worse, but then my dad got really sick.
A week before Christmas, I watched my dad collapse in a Subway, and have two seizures right in front of me in a span of two days. I had no idea what to do, we were in Texas visiting family for the holidays, and anyone I would want to talk to was all the way in Illinois. I was lost, hopeless, and letting the darkness take over. My father eventually went into a coma, and I didn’t get to spend New Year’s with my mom or dad.
All I could think of is why? Why did God do this to me? Why did God put us in Kentucky, and my dad get sick? What could I have possibly done to deserve all of this darkness? I thought I would never recover, I never thought that I would ever be the same. I had no idea if I would ever be able to talk to my dad again.
But God always works things out. In the darkest time of my 14 years of life, God showed his love to me like a rainbow after the rain.
Due to the circumstances, we had missed a good amount of school and was learning in a very bad environment. Yet during my father’s stay in the hospital, my grandmother came across something that would literally change all of our lives. The opportunity to go to the best private school in Kentucky was right at my fingertips, all because of this dark and horrid situation. The only way I would have been able to go to this school was if I got a complete scholarship, and a full miracle took place. I wrote an essay about what I had been through, and how it changed me and my future.
Because of the situation I was put in, and the darkness I was faced with, the light of God shined into my life. I now go to the best private school in Kentucky, all because of what God has done for me.
After I got to experience the school, I started to think about what the Lord has done for me, and what I could do to show that love towards others. So that’s what I did, I tried to be the light that I was shown wherever I went. The Lord blessed me with the chance of a lifetime, the least I can do is reflect that light in a lost and dying world, right? So whenever I go to school I make sure to dress different, talk different, and treat people different from everyone else. God is literally living in me, His light is inside of my heart, so everywhere I go I am going to reflect that!
As time went has passed, I realized I was becoming happier. With me giving compliments to random people, and letting people know I am there for them, and being as Christ like as I possibly can, I experienced what it really means to be happy. All I want to do is be the light that God has shown me.
This world is scary, and dark, and hopeless. But I know a God who created light with four words, and I know that through him I can be the light.
“This is the only world we know and for now this rental’s our home if we gonna be a reflection gotta make this third rock glow”- Toby Mac Light Shine Bright